I was listening to a song the other day, under normal circumstances, this would have been a 'happy' song. However, for some reason it left me with a very strange kind of feeling, I felt convicted almost guilty of something. This then lead me to feel 'sad' or it was more like a "hey who switched off the lights" kind of thing (do you know what I mean?)
Anyhow in the song were the lyrics "One way! Jesus! You're the only one that I could live for!", and that was the line that really got my mind cranking..
I thought about my own life, does this apply to me at all? Or when I sing this song am I just blatantly lying? I feel like I live for SO MANY other things, I cannot possibly say/sing those lyrics.
I think too much, and so this has been on my mind since it happened. And tonight, for some reason I again really felt it 'hitting me' (this post is beginning to make less and less sense).
What's the answer? I have not a clue
Why am I writing this post? I have no idea
Perhaps I am just trying to organise the thoughts in my head, perhaps it's a call to see if anyone has an answer (although I am not too sure I have even asked a question), perhaps I am going mental........
Why is it that I think, re-think and then think about what I just re-thought all the time. It's like I am fighting an ever going battle with my mind...trouble is...i am thick..so I have no idea how to sort it out....
in conclusion: ?
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The song lyrics thing has bothered me a lot too. Before I go into that, I'll clarify what I think you were trying to say (I hope I'm not annoying about this! Forgive me if I am; I know it can get old when people assume they know what you're thinking). But I guess you were trying to say that the song bothered you because the things it said weren't true. But you're not sure that the words can ever be true, and so you're not sure what can be done about it? So you're wondering if there is a point in asking that question at all, if there is no answer? (Which is a good question!)
Anyways, going on the assumption that that is at least partly what you were trying to express, that has bothered me before too. I even find myself modifying the lyrics so I say, "God, I want to be like this" instead of saying, "God, I am like this."
But that almost seems worse, because how can I tell God I want something, when I'm making so little effort to get it? I mean, if I tell God that I WANT to live only for Him, then what the heck is keeping me from living only for Him? of course, as we know from our charming little Sunday school class, there is also the flesh. But that so easily becomes an excuse (as you have observed already) where, when you make a mistake, you say "Oh, that was the flesh..." instead of taking responsibility.
I guess, in the end, God knows our hearts. If he sees in us an intensely burning desire to be His and His alone, then He will honor that. And if we don't have that desire, then what are we doing with our lives?
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